tarbiyyah sebuah hati

"Hai hati yang tenang tenteram! 

Kembalilah kepada tuhanmu dalam keadaan redha dan diredhai". 

(al-Fajr : 27-28)

These past few weeks, have been a roller coaster ride, untuk hati ini. Dilemparkan padanya, cabaran, dugaan, tangisan, that repeatedly broke it into tiny pieces, dicamtum semula hanya untuk dipecahkan kembali. 

Lupa, pada tujuan hati ini dilabuhkan. Lupa, pada Pemilik sebenar sekeping hati.

Kalah, fatin kalah pada perasaan. Kalah pada isi dunia that successfully conquered this tiny heart.

Setiap hati yang sedih, pasti ade yang berusaha untuk memujuk hati. Soothing words, calming verses, heart-melting gestures, are all portrayed by them just to lift us up.

'Takpe, ni dugaan je ni, insyaALLAH DIA pasti tolong'

'fatin, ALLAH lebih tahu whats best for you, 
take this as an opportunity to be close to HIM'

'Dear, this is tarbiyyah from HIM to you. dont regret on what had happen 

but take it as tarbiyyah dari Dia'

Tarbiyyah sebuah hati....

terjumpe sebuah coretan, that present me with the new sight of this tarbiyyah.

what has happened is His way of challenging me in this world

but what I will do to overcome this sadness, this choice, 
is my route of tarbiyyah.

will I remain steadfast with my decision..

is there a room in my heart to start moving on...

mampu ke hati ni tahan kesedihan from this..

i cant answer all those, but i know, I have to. I need to. 

For me, for those involve. 

Tenteramlah wahai hati, redhalah wahai hati

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. ALLAH SWT mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak.” 

(al-Baqarah, 216)

what we wanted, may not be what He has planned, 
what we thought for us, may just be for someone else,
thus open your heart for He surely will give us something more, something better, 
something that we pray hard will bring us closer, to Jannah, to HIM.

and i will surely remind myself again and again,
sedih tu, a part of human emotion
tapi qadha n qadar itu, a BIG part of muslim's eeman.

Come on fatin, you can do this! :)

linked.

of being akak 'Skirt'

People always have something to say about others, be it for fun, to criticize, praising or just simply because they run out of topic to talk about. Especially, when it comes to appearance.

Why do people put a big deal on how we look, how they look?

Some with hardly any clothing on, some put on loose shirt and skirt but everything is see-thru, others with the only-black-theme, some wear those you-call-them-muslimah- dress-but-its-tight?, some doesn't have enough shirt to put on I guess, or now, Korean-wave dresses. Thats Malaysia, a country we called a Muslim country. Where dressing isnt about covering the aurat anymore, isnt about being modest or for protection, it becomes something to show off, to brag about branding. Its all fashion, trends, and if you are out-of-trend, kate org kelantan, darak.

Summer 2010

Thats the starting point of how I am today.

It was mid of June, when ummi said, 'sopannya diorg tu kan, sejuk hati ibu mengandung' (pointing towards a group of ladies wearing tudung labuh, baju labuh, skirt or loose pants). Tengok diri sendiri, fail ke anak ummi ni? Ok, Tudung ta berape labuh, baju pun xberape labuh, pakai seluar ta berape loose, tp dah pakai stokin ni mi. somedays, fatin pakai baju kurung kaan.?

Ummi: Tapi Dia tengok kita setiap masa kan? bukan somedays?

(please note the changes in loghat affecting the real sentence but still carry out the same meaning, as pening nk taip dlm bahase kelantan, haha)

Coming back to the States, I started to throw out things that I shouldnt be wearing. alhamdulILLAH, thanks to ALLAH for opening my eyes, to the beauty of dressing down, modestly. No more jeans for me from then,  no more a little tight-fitting bajubaju yang cantik tu, no more pants. Lets start the day with a skirt. Thats where I got my little-name, akak skirt, since the past 2 years, I only wear skirts and baju kurung luar rumah, unless for sports.

Kenape pakai skirt? 

Xleyh ke pakai seluar? Islam ta cakap pun takleyh. Pakailah seluar yg loose, boleyh je kan. 

Sushla nk cari skirt, mahal plak tu. 

Nanti musim sejuk, takkan nk pakai skirt. 

Tak sush ke nk bergerak pakai skirt. Nanti nk jalan pun susah. 

Living here, surrounded by the blonde, the brunette, the black, white, name anything you will definitely find one, I am blessed with the fact that I am a Muslim. Proud to be one. 

You live in a community where you are the minority, when everything you do or say or wear, becomes a news to others. Representing the religion you are, how should we be?
Oleh itu, untuk saya yg hina lagi daif ni, I need to do something to tell the world of how beautiful Islam is. Nak gi berarak bawak banner mmg taklah, nak gi berceramah sini sane takder ilmu, all I have is me and how I put myself out there.

Today, my classmate put a smile and said, 'We have been in the same class for three semester, and you never fail to amaze me with your skirts. Is this how Muslim suppose to dress?'

Fatin Farhana is far from being a good Muslim, banyak lagi weaknesses that I own, but personally, I dont wear pants cause I think it suffocates me. I also think that wearing pants still is a little bit sexy sebab still nmpak shape kaki. And yes, Islam tak cakap pun takboleh pakai seluar, and again, I am not saying how I dress is the correct way, boleh je pakai seluar. But please pay attention to how it was cut, loose or tight, where does the shape highlighting, when it is not appropriate for you to wear it. 

Wearing a skirt does not mean you are pious and good servant, its just a choice that we made on how to dress accordingly, abiding the words of Quran in covering the aurat.

 And that it is for me, a choice.

Wahai Nabi katakanlah kepada isteri-isterimu,

anak-anak perempuanmu dan isteri-isteri

orang mukmin: "Hendaklah mereka mengulurkan

jilbabnya ke seluruh tubuh mereka".

Yang demikian itu supaya mereka lebih mudah

untuk dikenal, karana itu mereka tidak diganggu.

Dan Allah adalah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang". 

Surah Al.Ahzab (59)

I am not proud of being call 'akak skirt', cause with it comes a huge responsibility. 

To always be modest

To always pay attention to what you wear and how you bring yourself up to the accepted level.

To berhati2 dalam menjawab soalan kenape asyek pakai skirt je

and to always know that I am being watch, by those that in their heart, there's a tendency to change for better, but in need of a little push. 

with prayer and effort,

I hope that He sees right thru me and bless me with the courage to istiqamah on my choice

cause it has definitely been hard and tough, to live in the world where what matters is how you look. 

and i deeply pray that eventhough i didnt wear tudung labuh, baju labuh smpai lutut, i manage to make my mom say, ummi sejuk hati tengok anak ummi sopan everyday. 

p/s: this is only a reminder, for you and especially, again and again, for me. 

what is right

bismillah

i was talking(skyping) with my izyan baru tadi, biaselah, berborak hal-hal keperempuanan (is this even a word? :p) ..

and it hit me when she ask

"how do we know what is right?"

how do we sure its the right thing to do,

the right person he/she is to listen to?

What is the best answer i could give?

kalau dah nampak betol, so its the right thing?

tak langgar agama then its what should we go for?

dah ramai orang nasihat to choose that route so that should be it? the one?

and the only thing that comes to my mind is only FAITH.

i am surely not the best person to talk about it, -_-" (bilelah nak jadi baek ni...)

but, i think all should know, what FAITH is.

istikharah. the main and major, the IT thing now for youth.

Istikharah means to ask Allah to guide you to the path best for you concerning an affair with two halal options. In matters that are wajib (obligatory), haram (forbidden) or makruh (disliked) there is no need to pray Istikharah. Salaat-ul-Istikharah should only be used for matters that are mubah (allowed) or in matters that are mustahabb (liked or encouraged), in which there is a decision to be made as to which one should be given priority

knape kiter bergantung kepada istikharah?

wat istikharah untuk pilih yg mane satu nak wat suami?

istikharah nak masok uni mane... nak pilih jalan A ke jalan B ke...

and then we waited patiently for the signs, mimpi mimpi indah~ terserempak di tengah jalan~

tibetibe surat tawaran uni laen kene air pina colada (please try sedap sangaaat~) tinggal uni yg satu tu je, (hikhik)

and terjumpe poem the road not taken kat internet...

too many of us, (even me oso dulu dulu), wat istikharah, bace doa istikharah, pastu dengan excitednye pegi tido cepatcepat nak mimpi bestbest.. huhu

while some shall believe the dreams, the signs, i would really advise us to go with the Faith. the say of our heart.

doing istikharah means we put our decisions on Him. solely to HIM. believe that He will give you whats best for the time being.. however, do believe that the future is not in our control. take whatever comes and ask for direction from Him.

and insyaALLAH, once we start tanam faith in heart on Him, mesti ALLAH akan balas balek kan? Dia sayang kita right...

so insyaALLAH, our istikharah may not comes with the dreams, may not give us any hints or signs, but pray for the strength in heart, kerana itu yg kiter akan pegang to move on and decide..
to those who the istikharah clearly gives away dreams and 'healthy' sign, again, follow what your heart says.
insyaALLAH, if we do it for the right reason, the right things will we move on to. 

pray for the Faith and keyakinan dalam hati. He is there. have faith in that.

p/s please please, beware of was-was. Its mr Red games kan? its his job.

need to start writing.

life value

a) have not update the blog for months..

b) soul-food program(s) attended these days? unchecked!

c) home cook meal and mom's love is 7 hours away

d) keeping up with usrah(s)? way way behind.... :(

e)...

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z) whats new with your deen? OUTDATED!

am writing this post, in front of my new boss (internship in place, zzzz, -_-) with a tired mind, hands, eyes and everything i could feel tired with.

now I miss my life as student in States, with all those encouraging people surround, not in this tiny glass office that only gives me tons of cars passing by down below...*sigh*

is this what we call threshold izyan? cause if we do, this is my bottom-test threshold.

summer yg tak seindah yg dimimpi..

kosong.

eeman mendatar, atau mungkin turun bergolek.

rindu,

Islam yang bersemngat tinggi dibumi sana.

akur,

inilah cabaran hidup di M'sia.

aku kalah,

mungkin,

pada tuntutan dunia.

life value? ZERO.

Al-Fatihah.

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful (1)

Praise be to Allah, Lord of the Worlds, (2) The Beneficent, the Merciful. (3) Owner of the Day of Judgment, (4) Thee (alone) we worship; Thee (alone) we ask for help. (5) Show us the straight path, (6) The path of those whom Thou hast favoured. Not (the path) of those who earn Thine anger nor of those who go astray. (7)

untuk 'Ammi Sa'ari Che Kob;

ku mohon doa agar rohmu ditempatkan bersama alMu'minuun.

agar diampunkan segala kejahilan duniawi dan diberkati segala ilmu akhrawi

Fatin mohon kemaafan bagi pihak PakDa atas salah silap terhadap yang masih didunia...

kerana dunia ini sementara, sebuah persinggahan yang indah diluaran sahaja

dan PakDa dipilih untuk meneruskan perjalanan, menemui Sang Pencipta yang lebih menyayangi.

kerana masa PakDa sudah tiba..

and I, who still am drowning in the sea of sins,

ignoring the truth and following the youth..

without realizing that my time could be near, could be now,

could be tomorrow, nor will i ever know.

Everyday, I asked Him for so many things.

I asked for Jannah, I asked for success in this world and hereafter,

I asked for forgiveness of the sins of mine and of people that I love,

I asked for safety of those people, safety of the Ummah.

I asked for blessing to be kept on this road of Al-Haq,

I asked for so many things..that i forgot to ask.

Oh ALLAH, give me the Heart of Al-Mahdi; the heart of people who received hidayah with calm and acceptance. The heart that surrender to Your arrangement.

‎"Tidak ada suatu musibah pun yang menimpa seseorang kecuali dengan izin ALLAH; dan barangsiapa yang beriman kepada ALLAH niscaya Dia akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya. dan Allah Maha mengetahui segala sesuatu." (64:11)

Kerana ku sedar yaALLAH, aturanMu adalah yang paling tersusun buat kami

kuatkanlah ayahku, kuatkanlah ibuku, kuatkanlah kaum keluargaku,

kuatkanlah kami yaALLAH

kami memerlukan kekuatanMu untuk menghadapi yang belum pasti.

kerana masa kami akan tiba pasti.

AL-Fatihah for myUncle, who passed away this morning..

May ALLAH has his soul places in Jannatun Naeem.

AMEEEN.

ALLAHumma ameen.

Sandwich Jannah.. saya nak satu!

bismILLAH...

Sandwich Jannah.. saya nak satu!
Sandwich Jannah.. mahalnya harga.
Sandwich Jannah.. tak kire nak jugak satu!

" Dan segeralah kamu kepada (mengerjakan amal-amal yang baik untuk mendapat) keampunan dari Tuhan kamu, dan (mendapat) Syurga yang bidangnya seluas segala langit dan bumi, yang disediakan bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa;

Iaitu orang-orang yang mendermakan hartanya pada masa senang dan susah, dan orang-orang yang menahan kemarahannya, dan orang-orang yang memaafkan kesalahan orang. Dan (ingatlah), Allah mengasihi orang-orang yang berbuat perkara-perkara yang baik;

Dan juga orang-orang yang apabila melakukan perbuatan keji, atau menganiaya diri sendiri, mereka segera ingat kepada Allah lalu memohon ampun akan dosa mereka – dan sememangnya tidak ada yang mengampunkan dosa-dosa melainkan Allah -, dan mereka juga tidak meneruskan perbuatan keji yang mereka telah lakukan itu, sedang mereka mengetahui (akan salahnya dan akibatnya).

Orang-orang yang demikian sifatnya, balasannya ialah keampunan dari Tuhan mereka, dan Syurga-syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya beberapa sungai, mereka kekal di dalamnya; dan yang demikian itulah sebaik-baik balasan (bagi) orang-orang yang beramal."
[3: 133-136]

Istimewanya ayat2 ni..tengok, diapit syurga.

kategori manusiaa yang diapit syurga. the essential parts and powerful tools to human being.
kerana meraka ni disebut diantara jannah, permulaan dan pengakhirannye jannah
SANDWICH JANNAH.

(133)
Run towards the forgiveness of ALLAH
- kiter berlari apabila benda itu penting..we dont run towards thing we dont need
we run to catch the bus.. we run to work to get on time
dan bila yang perlu adalah untuk kiter berlari mengejar pengampunan ALLAH,
maka aknowledge we are in need of ALLAH's forgiveness..
and to ask forgiveness, kiter kene jadi hamba yg sedar kiter dah buat satu kesalahan, berjuta kesalahan.
dan ingatlah, no matter how good we are as Muslim, we are never free of sins.
we'll never get to the standars that ALLAH has set for us.
maka, RUN towards the forgivesness from Him.. berlari, lari mengejar yg Pasti.

Run towards this Garden of Jannah
yang memenuhi kebesaran antara bumi dan langit
our permanant 'residence'.. penginapan 'selama-lamanya'
yang disediakan untuk mereka yang bertaqwa. (u'iddat lilmuttaqin)

(134)
dan siapakan mereka ini, hamba yang bertaqwa?

- menderma pada masa susah dan senang..
the amount is never a matter, its the action. it include time, youth, money and everything is for the sake of ALLAH. and letting go something that we love, is giving...

- walkazhimi nal ghoiz.. - swallowing your anger..walkazimi , swallow, telan...
not only you have to be quiet when you're angry, you need to hide it as though its not even there!
and you have to do this all the time.

susahnya! oh susahnya!

kita mengaharpkan ALLAH untuk tidak marah, murka kepada kejahilan kita,
tapi here we are, trying to be angry towards mereka yang tarafnya adalah sama, seorang hamba.

- memaafkan manusia kerana cinta, sayang.
sukarnya untuk memaafkan kesalahan manusia terhadap kita.
apatah lagi, memaafkan out of love of ALLAH
but know now, we are not forgiving them because they deserve the forgiveness.
we are not forgiving them because they ask for forgiveness.
we forgive them because we want to be in this list, the list of alMuttaqeen, people of Taqwa
so we forgive for our ownself.

"saya tak mampu, saya tak mampu!"

Oh SUSAHNYA!

(136)
dan meraka yang apabila melakukan kesalahan atau dianiaya oleh orang lain
those who did any act of shamelessness, or wrong themself in any other way,
dan meraka yang ditules oleh ALLAH ini adalah people of Muttaqeen..
people of Muttaqqeen.
kerana ALLAH nak kiter sedar, mereka juga membuat kesalahan, kerana kiter adalah hamba.

namun yang membezakan the true people of Taqwa ialah,
immediately after they did wrong,

ZAKARULLAHA - mereka mengingati ALLAH
dan mereka memohon ampun atas kesalahan itu
kerana who forgive sins except ALLAH.

-_-" banyak nye dosa saya.. oh oh

(137)

dan hadiah, ganjaran terbesar untuk mereka diatas?
cepat teke!

"forgiveness from their Lord and gardens beneath which rivers flow [in Paradise],

where in there they will abide eternally"

eternally....
Selama-lamanya.

Sandwich Jannah.. saya nak satu!
Sandwich Jannah.. oh susahnyaaa, banyak nyer rule.
Sandwich Jannah.. waaaa, mahalnyaa!
Sandwich Jannah.. tapi saya masih nak satu!

hati ini, Rindu.

bismILLAH

Rindu.

pade kebahagiaan dan ketenangan bila bersama meraka.

pada kasih sayang yang ada

Jauh,

dari pandangan mata,

namun dekat dalam hati yang sering menyeru,

dan sesungguhnya aku Rindu,

pada mereka berdua,

yang memahamiku dari pandangan berbeza.

oh ALLAH, aku rindu.

kerana kami jauh,

jagakan mereka untuk aku.

kerana mereka jua duniaku.

dan kumahukan mereka juga untuk akhiratku.

kerana mereka,

ku ingin kesyurga bersama.

dan aku masih rindu.

--Aidilfitri, 2008--

buat along n adek, jaga diri, jaga eeman, jaga ALLAH dan jaga Rasulnya,..

dan jagakan diri ini yang maseh diselubungi dunia.

Saya Rindu.

maka ALLAH, panjangkan umurku walau sehari, dan ampunkan dosaku untuk setiap saat ku didunia, agar dapat ku bertemu mereka didunia, dan disyurga sana.

Ameeen ALLAH humma ameen.

rama-rama indah

by fatin, Feb 8

ALLAHumma ameen..

a wish...tranquility..

"And to Allah belongs the east and the west. So wherever you [might] turn, there is the Face of Allah . Indeed, Allah is all-Encompassing and Knowing" [2:115]

kesulitan itu nikmat sebuah cabaran.
dan dari kesulitan, tercari-cari sebuah ketenangan, secebis kebahagiaan..

then I found myself longing for a beautiful place,
to find the pieces of Him in His creations..

subhanALLAH, alhamdulILLAH
while looking out through the bridge, over the freezing river, falling rain, open sky..
it feels like I could hear the zikr that they made to the Creator...
cause they are the highly obedient abd in this world, and how envy I am towards them..
and there, I found my calmness, tranquility..
...in the sound of nature...
that belongs to Him and Him only

reminds me of His words;

...kemana kamu menghadap, disitulah wajah ALLAH....

almakaan aljamil.
inna ALLAH ha jamiil,
wa uhibbul jamaaal.
-quoted

The beautiful place.
Sesungguhnya ALLAH itu cantik,
dan kusukai sebuah kecantikan..

bizikrILLAH; insyaALLAH, akan dihadiahkan ketenangan yang dicari..
kerana alam jua turut berzikir, dan alam dipenuhi dgn ketenangan abadi....

p/s: thanks Asilahani 4 the amazing picture.. ^^
p/s II: heart and kisses to my three sisters yg layan fatin all way in this short trip...:)

tabah, harus!

Open my lungs

To breathe in forgiveness and love

Haunting me now

Reminders of how I used to be

On down the road

The troubles sure to follow

Looking out the window

I know where I will go

So I'll just keep on driving

...

I swore off my past

The first and last bad call

That I ever made

Tell me how to make right

Every wrong turn that I've learned

That this could all end tonight

....

With this my heart I'll follow this time

[daughtry: Tennessee line]

terkesan sedikit hati bile terencounter lirik ni tadi, its been a while since i listen to songs..

huhu, mungkin kerana the lyrics read my heart out loud..

No boundaries right, no lines, no separation between your life yesterday,

today and every other day..

the thing that differs is how you change what you want to have, what you wanna feel..

ask forgiveness if you did wrong..

forget things that others wronged you.

fix things you did wrong..

accept what they try to make things right.

then mend things to be alright...

so easy to type it in, so hard to do.

at least for me.

i know this will be a post yang memeningkan, xtentu pasal..

but there's something i wanted to say..

and i hope one's reading it will understand what my heart is saying.

semoga ALLAH memberkati anda dan anda semua2 nye, kerana anda adalah dunia saye, untuk ALLAH memberkati saya..ameen ameen

tabah fatin, harus!

Jagakan mereka untuk saya, yaALLAH

Salamun'alaik untuk semua..

post ni specially dedicated untuk those out there who are praying for the safety of my sister in Egypt and to Izyan for the overwhelming post.

untuk kawan2 along diluar sana, alhamdulILLAH, Nadiah sempat pulang ke Malaysia, safely landed on last saturday. alhamdulILLAH, praise to ALLAH..

she may be out of reach for a while and could not respond to your concern on facebook and all, but she's safe insyaALLAH.. my family is currently taking a short break from the news, shock and everything.

and for those out there, who are worrying over families and friends far away in tanah anbiya, pray and pray harder. Cause for now thats the only weapon that will surely be heard by ALLAH. For a long time has He takes good care over the land, and now He wants us to fight for Him. insyaALLAH, the righteous deen will definitely win.

" Katakanlah: “Wahai Ahli Kitab! Marilah kepada satu kalimah yang sama antara kami dengan kamu, bahawa kita tidak mengabdikan diri melainkan kepada Allah, dan kita tidak menyekutukan-Nya dengan sesuatu; dan sebahagian daripada kita tidak menjadikan sebahagian yang lain sebagai tuhan selain Allah.” Jika mereka berpaling katakanlah: “Saksikanlah bahawa kami adalah orang Muslim.” [3:64]

dan janji yang paling pasti adalah janji ALLAH. maka yakinlah. Yakin.

for now, my cousins and friends are still fighting for their safety.

maka yaALLAH, jagalah mereka untukku. jagalah mereka untuk keluarga mereka. jagalah mereka untuk ummahMu. ALLAHumma ameen..

The Queue = As-Sof

zaman maseh kecik tak matang bersekolah rendah, setiap pagi, pasti beratur di kaki lima kelas, dengan pengawas berada dihadapan barisan smbil memerhatikan pelajar supaye berkelakuan elok.

"Angkat, jatuh. Angkat Jatuh" jerit ketua kelas dengan lantangnye.

teringat memori2 lame, beratur berdua-duaan mengikut ketinggian, bergerak dlm barisan menuju tapak perhimpunan..

tak matured rupenyer fatin ketika itu... huhu

Siape sangka, pengakhiran hidup setiap manusia juga akan maseh beratur, dalam Saf yg kite umaat manusia sendiri pilih untuk beratur dalam, tanpa paksaan atau peraturan oleh ketua kelas dan pengawas.

Namun bezanye, begitu ramai akan menyesal dengan Saf pilihan mereka; dan segolongan yang bersyukur dengan yang mereka ada.

Di padang mahsyar, manusia beratur dalam saf mengikut Nabi dan pemimpin masing- masing. Orang kafir & munafik beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim. Setiap pengikut ada tanda mereka tersendiri untuk dibezakan.

inilah pilihan kiter. Pilihan untuk beratur dalam saf yang mane.

Dan pilihan ini dibuat sepanjang kehidupan kiter dunia, tanpa paksaan oleh pengawas atau ketua darjah.

Menyesalkah mereka yang memilih untuk beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim?

'Ya ALLAH, tetapkanlah hati dan jiwa kami dalam golongan yang akan berimamkan Nabi Muhammad SAW, teguhkan diri kami dalam jalan al-Haq yang dipertaruhkan"

bersemangat makcik Walmart pagi tadi menyusun cart2 untuk memudahkan pelanggan walmart menggunakan cart, tanpa perlu tarik dari susunan panjang tu..huhu~

begini ke kiter beratur nanti? ditentukan oleh siapa? bukan diri sendiri?

drama dalam kotak

Sometimes, it feels like my life is owned by others..

bagai kota beracun yang dipass around dalam bulatan...

FUNNY, how others can decide on your life...

sedang menunggu untuk "kotak beracun" itu smpai kepada

fatin semula..huhu~

semoga fatin sabar, dan tabah..

yakin Dia ada fatin..yosh!

*saye nk hidup sy kembali boley? pleaseee...pass cepat2 siket kotak ni....

ingatkan ku jika diri ini terlupa

‎"..... Ya Tuhan-ku, anugerahkanlah aku ilham untuk tetap mensyukuri nikmat-Mu, yang telah Engkau anugerahkan kepadaku dan kepada kedua orang tuaku dan agar aku mengerjakan kebajikan yang Engkau Redhai; dan masukkanlah aku dengan Rahmat-Mu ke dalam golongan hamba-hambaMu yang soleh." [27:19] --

syukur. hikmah.

seringkali cabaran dan mehnah datang menziarah, baek pada hati atau jiwa yang lemah. mungkin kerana diri ini belum cukup beriman, dan lebih memikirkan dunia..

dan seringkali setiap cabaran itu, mendidik, menzahirkan kebesaran Dia. maka haruslah jiwa ini syukur, dengan hikmah yg diberikan.

saya pasti kita senmua pun tahu ape itu syukur. syukur dengan nikmatNya; nikmat kehidupan, bersahabat, kejayaan, dan nikmat terbesar, nikmat seorang Muslim yg beriman..

dan terkadang kiter terlupe, untuk bersyukur pada nikmat mehnah (kesulitan) yang dilalui.

kerana darinya, kiter belajar tentang dunia,

darinya, kiter berusaha untuk bangun semula.

Doa Nabi Sulaiman r.a (ayat 19 diatas) -- sedangkan seorang nabi memohon diberikan ilham untuk belajar mensyukuri nikmat dunia, apatah lagi saye manusia yg penuh kelemahan. kerana begitu sukar untuk cube bersyukur pada kesulitan yang menyakitkan diri..

dan senyumlah..kerana senyuman itu ubat segala duka...

and this, i will surely forget later in future.

and dear reader, please constantly remind me of what i've written, kerana risau diri ini terkeluar dari golongan yg bersyukur.

cause what i want in this life is to be constantly reminded of the life after.

guide us through and through yaALLAH.

One day..

was reading hanisah's blog when i found this...

i wish i was there too..
not last year..
not this year..
pray for it to be next year..

Eid Mubarak AS31
Eid Mubarak to all...

keep it simple..

been meaning to update..
for days..
lets wait till wednesday morning, when history is no longer bothering... *malasnye nk exam*

*bittaufiq wannajah ^^*

for the past hectic, crazy week,
here's a treat..
to my own self..
^^
(this was taken on sunday)ice cream might just be what we need...


Fa inna ma'al 'usri yusra. Inna ma'al 'usri yusra
=)



p/s, hari ni hujan lagi.. alhamdulILLAH..
happiness, peacefulness

wHEN IT RAINs..

walking out from class today make me smile.. it's raining...
just when I'm about to start missing the rain, He gives me my rain..

we've heard people says different things about rain

'ala, hujan ke.. nnti abes basah baju'

"hujan tak, mendung tak, ni asal bad mood ni?"


associating rain with bad mood..
sedih bile hujan turun sebab always think that hujan itu menyusahkan..

pernah tak we think on why He creates the rain?
*okay should know by now He creates everything for a reason(s)*

"ALLAH is the One who sends the winds, to stir up clouds, to be spread throughout the sky in accordance with His will. He then piles the clouds up, then you see the rain coming down therefrom. When it falls on whomever He chooses from among His servants, they rejoice." [30:48]

masyaALLAH, hujan nk turun kat sape, dimane, itupun pilihan ALLAH..
so shouldn't we be glad, be happy, thankful and rejoice? ^^

The time when it rains is the time when He shows us His mercy..
and being the choosen one to be blessed with His mercy, take the chance, make something from it..



we know that Ramadhan is the month when pintu2 langit terbuka, Rasulullah bersabda

"Apabila masuk bulan Ramadan, pintu-pintu langit dibuka." -
Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari dalam Sahihnya, hadis no: 1899.

and this is the time when He WANTS us to ask from Him, to pray to Him, for all our actions are sent all way up above....kan kan?

tapi tahu tak waktu hujan pon pintu langit terbuka? =)

"Maka Kami bukakan pintu-pintu langit, dengan menurunkan hujan yang mencurah-curah"
(al-Qamar : 11)

maksudnya? maksudnya time hujan adalah one of the golden hours..
waaaaa~

Seek the response to your du'as when the armies meet, and the prayer is called,
and when rain falls' [reported by Imam al-Shafi' in al-Umm, al-Sahihah #1469].

so, da jom semue sayang, suke hujan...
make our du'a while its raining..
kan Hujan itu Rahmat...=)

I love the rain more today.

am falling in love, again, with the rain..

sitting outside the library, under the rain...
smiling, falling...

*esok hujan lagi please*

it is the heart~

it is the heart

that conquers the world..

that determines the actions..

that speaks the intentions..

it is the heart

that put man in misery

that placed man in history

that laughed at man for following..

but it is also the heart

that can bring peace

that can offer love and dignity

that can give what world really is

for it is the heart

that He really sees

it is the heart

that we only need

with the left pieces of Ramadhan that we have,

fix the heart, with the sincere desire;

cure the heart, with the honest and meaningful act to attire;

guard the heart, with the wording of Al-Quran, for it is for to preach...

as now the enemies of heart are waiting impatiently,

for the ties thats holding them to be free,

to create the battle that last eternity..

be just, even to the heart..

for its not ours to begin with.

for the heart is what we will be...

It is the heart....

jangan sampai dibacakan kepada kita,

....لهم قلوب لا يفقهون بها ....

"....mereka memiliki hati tapi tidak digunakan untuk memahami ayat-ayat ALLAH..."

Wahai hati, bersabarlah dengan dunia..

Bingkisan Kasih Ibu

Bismillah
few months back..ibu saye tules ni..
saye nk share dengan semue org
sebab nk semue org realize akan kasih sayang seorg ibu
sebab,

ibu, comes after Allah n Rasulullah,,
ibu, comes three times than bapa baru datang
ibu, syurga kat tapak kaki dia
ibu, yang mane, kadang2 ade antara kiter da tak berpeluang nk jumpe
ibu, yang mane, SAYA SANGAT SAYANG

dan saya nk semue kawan2 saya sayang ibu mereka
sebab there are a lot of stars out there,
but there's gonna be only one mother...

“Wahai Rasulullah, siapakah di antara manusia yang paling berhak untuk aku berbuat baik kepadanya?” Rasulullah menjawab, “Ibumu.” “Kemudian siapa?” tanyanya lagi. “Ibumu,” jawab beliau. Kembali orang itu bertanya, “Kemudian siapa?” “Ibumu.” “Kemudian siapa?” tanya orang itu lagi. “Kemudian ayahmu,” jawab Rasulullah. (HR. Al-Bukhari no. 5971 dan Muslim no. 6447)



so, here it is,

Bingkisan Buatmu by Azmani Daud

BUAT NADIAH, FATIN DAN SYAZWAN

Kasih dan sayangku buat kalian
harum umpama setanggi dan tersemat kukuh jauh di sanubari.
Wajah-wajah kalian dirantauan yang bercahaya
bak bulan purnama sering menjengah lenaku.

Sayang,
Segala nasihat yang ku hamparkan saban hari buat kalian adalah bicara hati,
harapan dan impian yang agar disemat kukuh di dasar ingatan
dan menjadi peniup semangat hingga hari dewasa kalian.

Oleh itu sayang,
Semoga nurkasih-NYA sentiasa melingkari perjalanan kehidupan kalian,
terimakasih kerana selama ini kalian menjadi anak-anak yang baik ,
memberi kekuatan dan semangat buat umi
dalam meneruskan kehidupan yang penuh dengan ranjau dan duri.
Sesunggunya kalian adalah bidadari kayangan
yang sentiasa bertakhta di hati umi.

Kalian kesayangan dan segalanya buat umi................................

Rahmatilah ibuku yaALLAH
tempatkanlah ibuku dalam kekasih-kekasihMu
jadikanlah ibuku Ratu bidadari-bidadari syurga..
Ameeen