memoirs of music...

I was reading Izyan's post when it makes me wanting to write this post..

i didnt come from a family of music...but i do get interested in music at my early days of life... songs would be a great instrument to recap my life, occasionally...

westlife songs...esp flying without wings
i kinda grew up with westlife.. i remember almost all the songs that they sung..called me lame i dont care..i really think they had a great voice with wonderful songs.. i remember there's a poster of them that got me into a first and last fight with my i-love-you forever friend, tie. stupidity of a 6th grader i would say..lol...
and i remember ayah has to pay for all the cd's.. and had to listen to westlife songs all the way back from kl - kb or the other way round.. not to mention the screaming, out-of-pitch vibratos and everything that me n my sister did..it was a good memory though..makes me realized how i miss to had the 7-hours drive again.even after we've done it like thousands times..
flying without wings itself...reminds me of my sister so-called girl-band singing in front of school...lol.. n of course, the one that we have in kms..credits to nina for the excellent guitar chord...

not sure of the song title that goes like this "pogi pokan, naek basikal, tongah hari" and so on and on...
again..my dad.. he had this clear vision on how to keep us awake in the car.. so...remember all the stupid lyrics that we came up with..? i sure really2 miss you guys so much..(i'm starting to cry even just by writing this..sob2)

enggan - fauziah latif
not sure if my family and cousin would remember but back then, when we used to do karaoke at my house, i would sing this song and had a perfect score...you know how the LD player had this karaoke evaluating thingy where it measures your singing..
and i remember all the crap i sung...obviously, perfect score went to the drag queen..lol..

dimana malumu- melly goeslow
ingat x lagu niiiiiiiiiiii!!!! first and las time i would talk about it,...
for any of you guys who watch the ada apa dengan cita the movie, remember the first part of the movie where the girls danced to a song in the bedroom..? well, the wonderful me and along and kak long and kak emie and kak wanie and sya re-do it! haha!~ it was hilarious but i still remember it..at least, the hands part..
i miss all the singing and time sthat we had especially on the car rides with only the 5 or 6 of us singing to siti's melly or kris.. miss you guys badly...

negaraku - d'melodious
the first song that i can play with violin. miss those orchestra bits...

leaving on the jet plane- jet, tomorrow-avril
izyan arif.. i think this song brought us to where we are today...i'll remember all the times we spent on these songs.. love you n love you forever

when you're gone - avril
e-in, i still am crying for everytime i hear the song..hope you enjoy the movie we made and the song fits very well.. love you dear
proud - dbsk
syamin, lagu ni make you fall in love with them dont you..miss to rock the world of E002 with their songs..muahahah
more than words
i heard you play so much songs before and after..however, you still got me on the more than words on your birthday.. a short 30 seconds that reminds me so much of you..
'ape yg penting kerjasame, talifon berbunyi"
hahahaha!~ cant stop laughing.. this one goes to asilah and gja..the two kids that cheer my life up!



there are quite a number of songs that really portrays me..
some can be tell like what i did above and some are just too precious to be shared.
regardles..
hope not only song will bring us together..
love..
eternally..

miss my life..

Gravity..keeping the faith

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down


hope to see you guys again.
as one.
eternally.
always keep the faith.

I miss him

i was in the library and suddenly, an old man fall from his seat.
my heart pounded so hard..i thought he had a heart attack or something similar..
i rushed to him and saw blood all over his left eyes..
he had cuts all over his face and hands..
seriously i dont know how he got the cuts when he only fall onto the carpet.
maybe he's old..
his skin is vulnerable...
i put some bandage and wiped his blood..
i saw some old cuts all over his hand, face, fingers..

when i returned to my seat. i was thinking..
he reminds me of him..
a man that i love and miss up until today..
its been 8 years and one month..
hope your soul is blessed there..

forever love and miss you,
my Tok Ayah..

IZYAN ARIFF....

saya nak bagitau awak..izyan ariff...
saya rindu
izyan ariff...

rindu..
rindu nak gi umah awak..
rindu nak gelak same2 ..
rindu nak naek kete same2...
rindu nak lepak noodle same2...
rindu nak tido same2...
rindu nak jalan2 same2...
rindu shopping same2.....
rindu nak wat album tu same2....

basically..
saya rindu nak spent time dengan awak...

Fatin Wahab rindu Izyan Ariff. period.

when migrain visits...

when migrain visits...
satu keje pon x jadi..
homework x buat..
MATHS x practice...
research terbengkalai....

when migrain visits..
satu hari xder mood..
satu hari x nk ckp ngan org...
satu hari asyik tidor jer...
satu hari xproduktif jawabnya..

when migrain visits...
baju x basuh...
meja x kemas..
bilik x sapu...

when migrain visits...
rindu rumah...
rindu ummi bagi migrain-killer and suh masuk tido dlm blik dye...

when migrain visits...
semue diatas terjadi..
oleh itu incik migrain, pegila maen jauh2..
kesian kat kepala saye...
da lame da dtg menjenguknye...
boleyla tu nak balik yer incik migrain..
(nada menghalau)(cepatla pergi)

oh, saya kurang gembira
bile migrain menjelma...

family comes first..of all means, all the time....

sebab da nak raye, tp x nak wish raye lagi...
tibe2...teringat memory pagi2 raye..
esp yg kat my house...
i'm gonna first my first one in 20 years....
bot regretting but terkilan....
for my family, you guys should know that there's nothing that i would trade you guys with... n i would trade anything to have another one moment will all of you..
MISS MY FAMILY...so much...

ok, so, as i've never wrote a post on them..here, quite a detail one...=]
meet my family....


huhuhu...miss korg sgt2...n then...
my uncle n aunty...ni still x ckup..so.xper la..hehehehe..
che jah, che je, pok min, pok me, ayah le, che jun, che ji, che la, sumah! fa rindu rindu rindu nih...hehehee


btw, one moment to arwah ayah qie....al-Fatihah....

pastu....my love-life...heee causins...syg korg sgt2....rindu2... prepare adiah untuk sy nok balik next year yer...pastu kiter gi jalam2...jgn kansel2 da...kene jadi......
kak long..kak wani...kak emie...mc ya...along...n saya...we're the perfect team...

rindu2....semue org pon sy rindu..

pastu...dtgla kanak2 yg memeriahkan raye...rindu sume....tp..
paling rindu....kat muyie bochia..waaaaa



konklusinya...sy rindu smua org..

Happy Birthday Asilah Amran

asilah sayang, selamat hari lahir ke 20....da tua da kau..=]
aku doakan you'll be blessed by him, always...
we're 15 hours drive apart, so, there's nothing much i can do to celebrate hari ko transform from baby asilah ke gadis manis asilah...=P
so, i remembered you requested a poem for you..
here it goes..
(btw, sorry x best sgt...tp aku wat ikhlas tuk kau..=])

The beautiful past memories are embracing both worlds
With bliss and happiness swathe the two distance souls
For we’ve known the serenade that the other’s hold
To keep us tight while holding onto the world of our own.

Right now, somewhere, for I’ve known you’re in pain
And all I could offer is a paper of love for you to paint
Cause everything I wish for is you to smile again

As the world keeps spinning around,
Seek for the one moment to compose the sparkling sound,
To be kept, cherished and treasured,
For us to always remember,
That along the road that we travelled,
We’ve met the blue sky high; dark unravel ocean.

Thanks to you
I thank you forever
As you, is a gift to me
To ride this secret journey
Until the light shines our hearts,
Never we’ll ever be apart,
Like a melody and harmony in love.

Nor Asilah Amran,
Happy 20th birthday... have a great eid fitr cause we deserve it more than anything..=]
sayang ko...hope you know..

lots of love,
Fatin....

[EMOSAH] [ASMAA] [AZIM]

Selamat Hari Raye Aidilfitri kat korg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sesungguh hati kitorg kat sni rindu kat korg....
mintak maaf ampun hujung rambut hujung kaki atas salah silap, terksar bahase, action sini sane...sorry sessangat...even though you guys arent here in the States, you guys are here in our heart..
for we treasure you more than anyone else... We might be half war around the world's apart, tp aku harap, we'll stay as one, like we use to..
I pray for all of us to succeed in every single thing we do,
xkirela kat sni ke..
kat malaysia ke
uk ke...
prove them that we can..as we really do can..
for we've tried and worked so hard to blow this off..
semoga korg sume have a great hari raye..
rayekan untuk kitorg sekali..
post2 la duit raye...biskut raye...
kitorg terima ngan tangan ngan mulut terbuka....
aku sayang korang.... dyorg sume pon syg korang...
see you guys when we have made it to the top!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
NOOR HANISAH ABDUL RAZAK
ASMAA" NOR WIRA
and hero kite, ABDUL AZIM ZAKARIAH

Kad raye ni kitorg buat khas untuk our other 3 pieces of heart yg ader kat Malaysia....



SAYANG SUMENYER~

WISHLIST

there are several things i would really lyke to have nowadays...
BUT....
after the 2 hours phone talk (yg tlh memanaskan telinga i) with cik hani...
baru sye sendiri sedar...
sy masih belum jumpe LEMON saye..
kat mane Lemon..
so... my top list would be LEMON...

the truth of life....Al-Fatihah

its funny how we're always back to square one, the Almighty...
i was attracted to mat per's post on realiti manusia yg hanya berpaling padanya pada masa sulit, sedih, sukar n yg sewaktu dengannya... (terasa akteli)
few months back, we lost ARWAH NUBLAN....
we grieved..
we moaned...
we cried...
we didnt forget that he died...but we forget the sharp feeling that we hd when we first hear the news...
the fear of death....
setiap ummat yg memliki rasa takut akan mati masih ader iman dihati...(heard this somewer)
i was like that... i forgot to remember that feeling..
the sharp strong emotion that rush the blood out...
iman bertambah dan berkurang... sukar bagi seseorg itu untuk mengekalkan imannya kerana manusia sering alpa dengan keindahan dunia yg terbentang...

few minutes ago.... my uncle died... n i had this rush feeling again...
n this time around, i wanted it to last...
for this feeling is what i need to keep me on the ground...
to wake me up..from the truth of life...

Al-Fatihah to uncle Zayuki...
forgiveness i seek and forgiveness i give for everything that we had within those 9 years i knew you...
for Him knows whats best... i pray for your soul to be blessed and placed with the org2 beriman...may you rest in peace.....
to my beloved aunty, i give you my heart and my strength for you to pull through this bitter moment in your life... what happen were only meant for us to go back to square one.. The Savior... lots of love...