a wish...tranquility..

"And to Allah belongs the east and the west. So wherever you [might] turn, there is the Face of Allah . Indeed, Allah is all-Encompassing and Knowing" [2:115]

kesulitan itu nikmat sebuah cabaran.
dan dari kesulitan, tercari-cari sebuah ketenangan, secebis kebahagiaan..

then I found myself longing for a beautiful place,
to find the pieces of Him in His creations..

subhanALLAH, alhamdulILLAH
while looking out through the bridge, over the freezing river, falling rain, open sky..
it feels like I could hear the zikr that they made to the Creator...
cause they are the highly obedient abd in this world, and how envy I am towards them..
and there, I found my calmness, tranquility..
...in the sound of nature...
that belongs to Him and Him only

reminds me of His words;

...kemana kamu menghadap, disitulah wajah ALLAH....

almakaan aljamil.
inna ALLAH ha jamiil,
wa uhibbul jamaaal.
-quoted

The beautiful place.
Sesungguhnya ALLAH itu cantik,
dan kusukai sebuah kecantikan..

bizikrILLAH; insyaALLAH, akan dihadiahkan ketenangan yang dicari..
kerana alam jua turut berzikir, dan alam dipenuhi dgn ketenangan abadi....

p/s: thanks Asilahani 4 the amazing picture.. ^^
p/s II: heart and kisses to my three sisters yg layan fatin all way in this short trip...:)

tabah, harus!

Open my lungs

To breathe in forgiveness and love

Haunting me now

Reminders of how I used to be

On down the road

The troubles sure to follow

Looking out the window

I know where I will go

So I'll just keep on driving

...

I swore off my past

The first and last bad call

That I ever made

Tell me how to make right

Every wrong turn that I've learned

That this could all end tonight

....

With this my heart I'll follow this time

[daughtry: Tennessee line]

terkesan sedikit hati bile terencounter lirik ni tadi, its been a while since i listen to songs..

huhu, mungkin kerana the lyrics read my heart out loud..

No boundaries right, no lines, no separation between your life yesterday,

today and every other day..

the thing that differs is how you change what you want to have, what you wanna feel..

ask forgiveness if you did wrong..

forget things that others wronged you.

fix things you did wrong..

accept what they try to make things right.

then mend things to be alright...

so easy to type it in, so hard to do.

at least for me.

i know this will be a post yang memeningkan, xtentu pasal..

but there's something i wanted to say..

and i hope one's reading it will understand what my heart is saying.

semoga ALLAH memberkati anda dan anda semua2 nye, kerana anda adalah dunia saye, untuk ALLAH memberkati saya..ameen ameen

tabah fatin, harus!

Jagakan mereka untuk saya, yaALLAH

Salamun'alaik untuk semua..

post ni specially dedicated untuk those out there who are praying for the safety of my sister in Egypt and to Izyan for the overwhelming post.

untuk kawan2 along diluar sana, alhamdulILLAH, Nadiah sempat pulang ke Malaysia, safely landed on last saturday. alhamdulILLAH, praise to ALLAH..

she may be out of reach for a while and could not respond to your concern on facebook and all, but she's safe insyaALLAH.. my family is currently taking a short break from the news, shock and everything.

and for those out there, who are worrying over families and friends far away in tanah anbiya, pray and pray harder. Cause for now thats the only weapon that will surely be heard by ALLAH. For a long time has He takes good care over the land, and now He wants us to fight for Him. insyaALLAH, the righteous deen will definitely win.

" Katakanlah: “Wahai Ahli Kitab! Marilah kepada satu kalimah yang sama antara kami dengan kamu, bahawa kita tidak mengabdikan diri melainkan kepada Allah, dan kita tidak menyekutukan-Nya dengan sesuatu; dan sebahagian daripada kita tidak menjadikan sebahagian yang lain sebagai tuhan selain Allah.” Jika mereka berpaling katakanlah: “Saksikanlah bahawa kami adalah orang Muslim.” [3:64]

dan janji yang paling pasti adalah janji ALLAH. maka yakinlah. Yakin.

for now, my cousins and friends are still fighting for their safety.

maka yaALLAH, jagalah mereka untukku. jagalah mereka untuk keluarga mereka. jagalah mereka untuk ummahMu. ALLAHumma ameen..

The Queue = As-Sof

zaman maseh kecik tak matang bersekolah rendah, setiap pagi, pasti beratur di kaki lima kelas, dengan pengawas berada dihadapan barisan smbil memerhatikan pelajar supaye berkelakuan elok.

"Angkat, jatuh. Angkat Jatuh" jerit ketua kelas dengan lantangnye.

teringat memori2 lame, beratur berdua-duaan mengikut ketinggian, bergerak dlm barisan menuju tapak perhimpunan..

tak matured rupenyer fatin ketika itu... huhu

Siape sangka, pengakhiran hidup setiap manusia juga akan maseh beratur, dalam Saf yg kite umaat manusia sendiri pilih untuk beratur dalam, tanpa paksaan atau peraturan oleh ketua kelas dan pengawas.

Namun bezanye, begitu ramai akan menyesal dengan Saf pilihan mereka; dan segolongan yang bersyukur dengan yang mereka ada.

Di padang mahsyar, manusia beratur dalam saf mengikut Nabi dan pemimpin masing- masing. Orang kafir & munafik beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim. Setiap pengikut ada tanda mereka tersendiri untuk dibezakan.

inilah pilihan kiter. Pilihan untuk beratur dalam saf yang mane.

Dan pilihan ini dibuat sepanjang kehidupan kiter dunia, tanpa paksaan oleh pengawas atau ketua darjah.

Menyesalkah mereka yang memilih untuk beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim?

'Ya ALLAH, tetapkanlah hati dan jiwa kami dalam golongan yang akan berimamkan Nabi Muhammad SAW, teguhkan diri kami dalam jalan al-Haq yang dipertaruhkan"

bersemangat makcik Walmart pagi tadi menyusun cart2 untuk memudahkan pelanggan walmart menggunakan cart, tanpa perlu tarik dari susunan panjang tu..huhu~

begini ke kiter beratur nanti? ditentukan oleh siapa? bukan diri sendiri?

drama dalam kotak

Sometimes, it feels like my life is owned by others..

bagai kota beracun yang dipass around dalam bulatan...

FUNNY, how others can decide on your life...

sedang menunggu untuk "kotak beracun" itu smpai kepada

fatin semula..huhu~

semoga fatin sabar, dan tabah..

yakin Dia ada fatin..yosh!

*saye nk hidup sy kembali boley? pleaseee...pass cepat2 siket kotak ni....

ingatkan ku jika diri ini terlupa

‎"..... Ya Tuhan-ku, anugerahkanlah aku ilham untuk tetap mensyukuri nikmat-Mu, yang telah Engkau anugerahkan kepadaku dan kepada kedua orang tuaku dan agar aku mengerjakan kebajikan yang Engkau Redhai; dan masukkanlah aku dengan Rahmat-Mu ke dalam golongan hamba-hambaMu yang soleh." [27:19] --

syukur. hikmah.

seringkali cabaran dan mehnah datang menziarah, baek pada hati atau jiwa yang lemah. mungkin kerana diri ini belum cukup beriman, dan lebih memikirkan dunia..

dan seringkali setiap cabaran itu, mendidik, menzahirkan kebesaran Dia. maka haruslah jiwa ini syukur, dengan hikmah yg diberikan.

saya pasti kita senmua pun tahu ape itu syukur. syukur dengan nikmatNya; nikmat kehidupan, bersahabat, kejayaan, dan nikmat terbesar, nikmat seorang Muslim yg beriman..

dan terkadang kiter terlupe, untuk bersyukur pada nikmat mehnah (kesulitan) yang dilalui.

kerana darinya, kiter belajar tentang dunia,

darinya, kiter berusaha untuk bangun semula.

Doa Nabi Sulaiman r.a (ayat 19 diatas) -- sedangkan seorang nabi memohon diberikan ilham untuk belajar mensyukuri nikmat dunia, apatah lagi saye manusia yg penuh kelemahan. kerana begitu sukar untuk cube bersyukur pada kesulitan yang menyakitkan diri..

dan senyumlah..kerana senyuman itu ubat segala duka...

and this, i will surely forget later in future.

and dear reader, please constantly remind me of what i've written, kerana risau diri ini terkeluar dari golongan yg bersyukur.

cause what i want in this life is to be constantly reminded of the life after.

guide us through and through yaALLAH.

One day..

was reading hanisah's blog when i found this...

i wish i was there too..
not last year..
not this year..
pray for it to be next year..

Eid Mubarak AS31
Eid Mubarak to all...

keep it simple..

been meaning to update..
for days..
lets wait till wednesday morning, when history is no longer bothering... *malasnye nk exam*

*bittaufiq wannajah ^^*

for the past hectic, crazy week,
here's a treat..
to my own self..
^^
(this was taken on sunday)ice cream might just be what we need...


Fa inna ma'al 'usri yusra. Inna ma'al 'usri yusra
=)



p/s, hari ni hujan lagi.. alhamdulILLAH..
happiness, peacefulness

wHEN IT RAINs..

walking out from class today make me smile.. it's raining...
just when I'm about to start missing the rain, He gives me my rain..

we've heard people says different things about rain

'ala, hujan ke.. nnti abes basah baju'

"hujan tak, mendung tak, ni asal bad mood ni?"


associating rain with bad mood..
sedih bile hujan turun sebab always think that hujan itu menyusahkan..

pernah tak we think on why He creates the rain?
*okay should know by now He creates everything for a reason(s)*

"ALLAH is the One who sends the winds, to stir up clouds, to be spread throughout the sky in accordance with His will. He then piles the clouds up, then you see the rain coming down therefrom. When it falls on whomever He chooses from among His servants, they rejoice." [30:48]

masyaALLAH, hujan nk turun kat sape, dimane, itupun pilihan ALLAH..
so shouldn't we be glad, be happy, thankful and rejoice? ^^

The time when it rains is the time when He shows us His mercy..
and being the choosen one to be blessed with His mercy, take the chance, make something from it..



we know that Ramadhan is the month when pintu2 langit terbuka, Rasulullah bersabda

"Apabila masuk bulan Ramadan, pintu-pintu langit dibuka." -
Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari dalam Sahihnya, hadis no: 1899.

and this is the time when He WANTS us to ask from Him, to pray to Him, for all our actions are sent all way up above....kan kan?

tapi tahu tak waktu hujan pon pintu langit terbuka? =)

"Maka Kami bukakan pintu-pintu langit, dengan menurunkan hujan yang mencurah-curah"
(al-Qamar : 11)

maksudnya? maksudnya time hujan adalah one of the golden hours..
waaaaa~

Seek the response to your du'as when the armies meet, and the prayer is called,
and when rain falls' [reported by Imam al-Shafi' in al-Umm, al-Sahihah #1469].

so, da jom semue sayang, suke hujan...
make our du'a while its raining..
kan Hujan itu Rahmat...=)

I love the rain more today.

am falling in love, again, with the rain..

sitting outside the library, under the rain...
smiling, falling...

*esok hujan lagi please*

it is the heart~

it is the heart

that conquers the world..

that determines the actions..

that speaks the intentions..

it is the heart

that put man in misery

that placed man in history

that laughed at man for following..

but it is also the heart

that can bring peace

that can offer love and dignity

that can give what world really is

for it is the heart

that He really sees

it is the heart

that we only need

with the left pieces of Ramadhan that we have,

fix the heart, with the sincere desire;

cure the heart, with the honest and meaningful act to attire;

guard the heart, with the wording of Al-Quran, for it is for to preach...

as now the enemies of heart are waiting impatiently,

for the ties thats holding them to be free,

to create the battle that last eternity..

be just, even to the heart..

for its not ours to begin with.

for the heart is what we will be...

It is the heart....

jangan sampai dibacakan kepada kita,

....لهم قلوب لا يفقهون بها ....

"....mereka memiliki hati tapi tidak digunakan untuk memahami ayat-ayat ALLAH..."

Wahai hati, bersabarlah dengan dunia..