Monday, October 1, 2012

tarbiyyah sebuah hati


"Hai hati yang tenang tenteram! 
Kembalilah kepada tuhanmu dalam keadaan redha dan diredhai"
(al-Fajr : 27-28)


These past few weeks, have been a roller coaster ride, untuk hati ini. Dilemparkan padanya, cabaran, dugaan, tangisan, that repeatedly broke it into tiny pieces, dicamtum semula hanya untuk dipecahkan kembali. 
Lupa, pada tujuan hati ini dilabuhkan. Lupa, pada Pemilik sebenar sekeping hati.
Kalah, fatin kalah pada perasaan. Kalah pada isi dunia that successfully conquered this tiny heart.

Setiap hati yang sedih, pasti ade yang berusaha untuk memujuk hati. Soothing words, calming verses, heart-melting gestures, are all portrayed by them just to lift us up.

'Takpe, ni dugaan je ni, insyaALLAH DIA pasti tolong'
'fatin, ALLAH lebih tahu whats best for you, 
take this as an opportunity to be close to HIM'
'Dear, this is tarbiyyah from HIM to you. dont regret on what had happen 
but take it as tarbiyyah dari Dia'


Tarbiyyah sebuah hati....
terjumpe sebuah coretan, that present me with the new sight of this tarbiyyah.
what has happened is His way of challenging me in this world
but what I will do to overcome this sadness, this choice, 
is my route of tarbiyyah.
will I remain steadfast with my decision..
is there a room in my heart to start moving on...
mampu ke hati ni tahan kesedihan from this..

i cant answer all those, but i know, I have to. I need to. 
For me, for those involve. 

Tenteramlah wahai hati, redhalah wahai hati

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. ALLAH SWT mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak.” 
(al-Baqarah, 216)

what we wanted, may not be what He has planned, 
what we thought for us, may just be for someone else,
thus open your heart for He surely will give us something more, something better, 
something that we pray hard will bring us closer, to Jannah, to HIM.

and i will surely remind myself again and again,
sedih tu, a part of human emotion
tapi qadha n qadar itu, a BIG part of muslim's eeman.

Come on fatin, you can do this! :)