Saturday, December 19, 2009

Privating(?) the pictures

Assalamualaikum WBT...
dengan nama Allah yg Maha Pengasih lagi Mengetahui.....

sorry tajuk, x sure perkataan privating wujud ke tak...cam tak jer...heehehhe
so, parallel to my previous...erm, mesti ramai yg pening kan...xpaham ape matlamat post tu..

ringkasnya, tidak haram bagi seorang wanita itu mengambil dan meletakkan gambar dalam page dye....of coz la, saya pon buat..heeee,...kenangan2...
namun, jatuh hukum dosa bile gambar yg kiter post tu boley menimbulkan fitnah dan dipandang oleh brothers...pandangan pertama, rezeki...pandangan kedua..?
(maaf sgt2 jahil dalam penyampaian ilmu ni..insyaAllah, akan cuba improve mase depan,...)

so, cam mane sebenarnye nak private gambar ni..? saya buat ke..?
ok, alhamdulillah, sy da private kan dan untagkan gambar2 kat facebook untuk kaum2 sisters n femli jer....
melainkan gmbr yg dialbum rakan2, sesungguhnya sesetengah perkara itu diluar kawalan sya, datangnya dari keburukan sy sendiri.....

nak private gambar, cam ni.... mule2, tekan tab friends kat top page tu...
then, dye akan kluar bnyk2 kawan kiter kn..then, ader satu tab "Create New List"...
ha! tekan bende tu then check on any friends or sesapa yang korang nk bagi permission tengok gambar tu...
then, bile da settle eveything, pegi kat album yg korg nak private kan....then, click edit info, then pilih drop box untuk who can see this album, then pilih customize..nnti akan kluar group yg korg create td...
da siap...=]]
hehehe

perubahan itu sukar...memulakannya lagilah sukar....namun, setiap satu perubahan yg kiter buat, dari sekecil2 ibu jari insyaAllah, akan membawa kiter ke perubahan yg lebih besar
sesungguhnya, Allah menyayangi umatnya yang sentisa menghampiriNya...
ameen...

for the old me who made so many mistakes..
for the old me who ignore so many things
for the old me who bluntly did what i wanted
for the old me who know everything but nothing
for the old me, i ask for forgiveness..
for the future.
uncertain future.

insyaAllah, Dia bersama kita...
sesungguhnya, Dia lebih mengetahui...

btw, selamat bercuti semue...
saya tak sabar nk jumpe budak2 kms!!@1


jazakumullahu
-fatin-

Monday, December 14, 2009

pictures, the untold story

Assalamualaikum WBT..

alhamdulillah..banyak respon sy terima bertules atau tidak from my previous post.
it never was easy but thanks to those beautiful people i have surround me. you guys may be 1000 miles away but you are next to me in my journey. I love you even more.

starting was hard, full of surprises and short comings, but once we went through it, you'll see exactly what you wanted to see.. things fall into places, neatly, consistently.. and along the way, you'll realized so much more that it will comes down in your mind, "that is so true, how could i miss that before, glad to know it now".

from the very small steps you took, from the shortest word you wrote, till the biggest reaction you gave, everything relates to understanding and beliefs. and to realize that it was meant only for us to know the truth....

i was googling around and i found a quotes that sounds like "blogging is good. tapi jgn lupe setiap patah perkataan yang ditules itu adalah doa. dan doalah untuk kebaikan Umat bersama"..
somehow, it changed the reason of me to blog. thanks to the quoter..sgt2 terlupe..minta dihalalkan..

n tonite...izyan gave me a note. its something that we know, never realize about it but needs a special care.
for we are always the learner who thirst for new things.
admitting it, i put in pictures for people to see...trying to get people to know how my life is written..
somehow, i forgot that when i'm trying to get it to the first person, a third person might see it as well..
never was i meant to make a sin out of insignificant pictures of me. mungkin sebab itu
kaum hawa lebih ramai di neraka. only He knows.
Sekiranya niat anda hanya ingin berkongsi dengan rakan muslimah anda, lakukanlah secara tertutup. Elakkan posting yang boleh dilihat oleh segala macam jenis orang.


i did try my best to alter my photos as much as what i have uploaded. when it involves other people, it has somehow be out of my hand. hoping for forgiveness and bless from Him. Ameeen.

Sesungguhnya, Dia lebih memahami manusia lebih dari umat itu sendiri.
Ameeeen..

Wassalam

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Changes..its not about what if...its all about why...

Salam..
In the name of Allah the Forgiver

for quite sometimes, i have been dihantui macam2 hal..
its a good thing...but judging me, you will know how far would i be thinking about it..
i was hoping.
more.
from myself.
n
someone
said

stop hoping
begin believing
n thank to that dear someone..
who give me this wonderful words of wisdom by LangitIlahi 

"""Ada orang mengadu pada saya. Dia dihantui masa silam. Katanya, dia hendak berubah. Tetapi tidak mampu kerana sering teringat akan keburukan-keburkan yang dilakukannya pada masa yang lepas. Lebih memburukkan keadaan, apabila melihat dia berubah, manusia-manusia di sekelilingnya mencemuh dah mengeluarkan ayat:


“Ala, dah jahat nak buat baik plak”


“Ingat aku nak ampunkan salah silap ko dulu?”


“jangan nak jadi malaikat la weh”


Dan macam-macam lagi.


Dia kesukaran. Seakan laluannya untuk menjadi hamba Allah yang baik, tersekat kerana dihadang oleh satu dinding besar yang maha tebal. Dia tidak mampu bergerak untuk berubah kerana langkahnya terhenti di lorong yang disangkanya jalan mati.


Saya melihat. Saya mendengar. Dan saya meneliti. Dia kata, dia tiada harapan lagi. Tetapi, saya nampak cahaya sakti yang mampu menembusi dinding itu. Jadi saya tanya hendak tanya satu soalan kepada manusia yang ingin berubah, tetapi mengalami situasi ini.


“Kerana apa anda berubah?”


Niat dan matlamat perlu jelas
Apa yang memberikan kekuatan untuk seorang pelari pecut 100 meter, berlari selaju kudratnya sepanjang 100 meter itu? Kenapa kita tidak pernah nampak, pelari pecut 100 meter dalam kejohanan Olimpik dan sebagainya, berlari perlahan santai-santai?


Kerana niatnya jelas. Dia berlari untuk menang. Kerana matlamatnya jelas. Dia mesti buat yang terbaik untuk menggapai pingat. Jadi, mahu atau tidak, apabila dia mempunyai niat dan matlamat sedemikian, maka dia perlu berlari sepantas boleh, walaupun dia sedar ada orang yang lebih pantas daripadanya di track itu.


Begitu juga untuk manusia yang ingin berubah, melakukan perubahan pada diri. Perkara pertama yang perlu dihiraukan bukanlah: “Boleh ke aku berubah?”, “Kalau aku berubah ni, orang terima ke?”, “Aku ni kalau berubah, boleh bertahan ke perubahan aku?”


Yang perlu dilihat oleh manusia yang ingin berubah adalah: “Kenapa aku berubah?”


Niat dan matlamat perlu jelas dalam hal ini. Kerana niat dan matlamatlah yang membekalkan peratus kekuatan terbesar, bagi membantu kita dalam perubahan. Jangan berubah kerana manusia, jangan berubah kerana keadaan, jangan berubah kerana rasa mampu berubah, jangan berubah kerana rasa boleh istiqomah dengan perubahan.


Kita berubah, kerana kita nak jadi hamba Yang Allah redha. Itu matlamat kita. Niat kita berubah adalah kerana Allah, nak Allah kira kita sebagai hamba-Nya yang terbaik, yang diredhai. Maka, mampu atau tidak untuk kita berubah, orang nak kutuk atau nak puji, boleh bertahan atau tidak dengan perubahan, kita nak atau tak nak, kita perlu bergerak ke arah perubahan.


Niat dan matlamat yang jelas inilah, keyakinan ini lah, keimanan ini lah, yang memampukan kita, memberi kekuatan kepada kita, untuk melakukan perubahan, walaupun dikutuk dan dikeji orang, ditohmah segala kata, dicaci dihina. Kerana niat dan matlamat kita, hanya Allah semata-mata, dan bukan kerana mana-mana makhluk-Nya.


Mula lah
Masalah manusia lagi adalah permulaan. Sebelum manusia melangkah, dia sudah menyibukkan dirinya dengan soalan-soalan tadi. “Boleh ke aku berubah?”,“Apa kata orang?”,”Nanti orang kutuk, malu la”. Tapi dia tidak bergerak lagi. Pelumba lari, yang tak berlari, maka apa peratus kemungkinannya untuk menang dalam larian?


0%. Kenapa? Sebab dia tak berlari. Tetapi, kalau dia mula berlari, walaupun saingannya adalah pelari terpantas dalam dunia, peratus kemungkinan untuk menang itu tidak akan menjadi 0%. Mungkin akan meningkat 0.0001%. Siapa tahu yang terjadi di atas track? Sekali pelari terpantas tu terjatuh ke? Maka peratus untuk menang meningkat lagi. Mungkin melonjak ke hingga 50%. Masalahnya, semua itu tidak kita ketahui, melainkan kita bermula.


Begitulah manusia yang inginkan perubahan. Tidak bermula, maka apakah layak untuk kita berkata apa-apa? Apa kata mula dahulu, kemudian baru kita cerita panjang?


Siapa yang bergerak ke arah Allah…
“Saya dah bergerak untuk berubah, tetapi saya ditekan oleh suasana. Masyarakat mengutuk saya, dan tidak menerima perubahan saya. Mereka masih tidak mempercayai saya, dan sering mengungkit keburukan lama saya”


Perkara itu kemungkinan akan berlaku, pada sesiapa yang Allah pilih untuk dia lalui. Maka, ketahuilah bahawa itu ujian daripada Allah SWT, tambahan kasih sayang-Nya, agar kita lebih rapat dan lebih berharap kepada-Nya.


Niat perubahan perlu bersih. Macam saya kata tadi. Kita berubah kerana Allah. Apa kita peduli manusia kata apa? Kita bergerak ke arah Allah SWT, bukan ke arah manusia. Dan ketahuilah bahawasanya Allah SWT itu Maha Besar Kasih Sayang-Nya.


Kalau kita cekal mengharungi ujian, dan bersangka baik kepada Allah SWT yang menurunkan segala duga, saya yakin 500%, hanya kebahagiaan sahajalah yang menanti kita. Kenapa saya amat yakin? Kerana Allah SWT tidak memungkiri janji-Nya.


Berubah itu bukan memaksa
Akhir sekali, sedikit perkongsian apabila berubah. Orang selalu kata, kalau nak berubah, tapi tak mampu istiqomah dengan perubahan, buat apa kan?


Benar. Tetapi, perkara yang manusia perlu faham adalah, perubahan itu bukan dengan cara paksaan. Tiada orang, yang membaca Langit Ilahi hari ini, jadi malaikat keesokan harinya. Penulis Langit Ilahi ini, saya sendiri, masih berusaha mempertingkatkan diri. Sekali sekala jatuh dan mendaki kembali dari kejatuhan.


Berubahlah sedikit demi sedikit, secara berterusan. Contoh mudah, katalah nak berubah dalam masalah tak solat. Takkan la bila berubah, nak terus buat qiamullail sekali? Mustahil. Dan kalau mampu buat pun, biasanya tidak akan bertahan lama. Manusia, bukan berubah seperti plastisin. Ketuk sekali berubah terus bentuknya. Manusia berubah dengan proses yang teratur.


Maka, kita susun jadual. Solat Fardhu dulu. Dari tak solat, kepada asalkan solat. Bila dah mampu istiqomah, solat tak tinggal, kita buat pula peningkatan kepada asalkan solat, kepada solat tepat waktu. Dari solat tepat waktu, kepada solat yang khusyu’. Dalam masa itu, ketahuilah bahawa, nanti hati kita akan dahagakan ‘tambahan’. Tanpa disuruh, hati sendiri akan berkata: “Eh, aku rasa kena solat sunat la.”


Orang akan kata pada saya: “Slow la camtu, berubah apanya?”


Apa masalahnya? Jangan nampak solat sahaja yang hadir dari teknik ini. InsyaAllah, dalam jangka masa dia memperbaiki solatnya, maka bahasanya akan menjadi lembut, akhlaknya akan menjadi sopan, sedikit demi sedikit. Inilah namanya tarbiyah. Bukan menyondol, tetapi dengan seni yang cantik dan teratur. Semuanya akan datang dengan pakej. Cuma pokoknya, perubahan itu perlu berterusan.


Jangan risau dengan sedikitnya perubahan kita hari ini. Ketahuilah, kalau kita istiqomah dengan sedikit itu, seterusnya kita berusaha mempertingkatkan diri kita, berubah sedikit demi sedikit lagi, pasti ada perubahan besar akan berlaku kepada diri kita. Allah itu Maha Penyayang. Siapa dekati Dia selangkah, Allah akan dekatinya 1000 langkah. Yakinlah. Pokoknya, mulakan perubahan, walau sedikit, tetapi istiqomah.


Penutup: Hancurkanlah dinding itu
Kita mampu berubah. Jangan sesekali memberi alasan menyatakan tidak mampu. Allah tidak memungkiri janjinya. Dia tidak akan menguji manusia dengan sesuatu yang tidak mampu manusia laluinya, menyelesaikannya.


Cuma mampu atau tidak, terpulang kepada diri manusia sendiri. Hendak atau tidak untuk berubah? Soalan itu, manusia sendiri perlu menjawabnya.


Allah, Dia tidak zalim dengan manusia. Yang zalim sebenarnya adalah manusia itu sendiri.


Mulakanlah perubahan, jangan kita tangguh-tangguhkan. Mulakan dengan niat yang jelas, matlamat yang jelas. Seterusnya lakukan perubahan, walau sedikit, tetapi pastikan ianya dalam keadaan istiqomah. Usahalah mentarbiyah diri, dan binalah suasana perubahan itu dengan bergaul bersama orang yang baik.


Kita mampu sebenarnya. Dan yakinlah, Allah SWT itu akan membantu kita dalam perubahan ini. Selangkah kita dekati Dia, seribu langkah Dia dekati kita.


Maka, hancurkanlah dinding penghalang di hadapan anda. Sesungguhnya, dinding itu tidak wujud pun sebenarnya. Hanya ilusi dalam mentaliti anda yang lama.""




It is all me.
start with yourself
not with worrying bout others
when what i need
is to believe

in me.

ameeen..



"Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku. bukalah pintu hatiku kejalan-Mu. leraikanlah pintalan perasaan yang meraja hati umat-Mu. berikanlah aku kekuatan dalam mengharungi liku hidup didunia-Mu." Ameeen

Wassalam.

Monday, November 16, 2009

memoirs of music...

I was reading Izyan's post when it makes me wanting to write this post..

i didnt come from a family of music...but i do get interested in music at my early days of life... songs would be a great instrument to recap my life, occasionally...

westlife songs...esp flying without wings
i kinda grew up with westlife.. i remember almost all the songs that they sung..called me lame i dont care..i really think they had a great voice with wonderful songs.. i remember there's a poster of them that got me into a first and last fight with my i-love-you forever friend, tie. stupidity of a 6th grader i would say..lol...
and i remember ayah has to pay for all the cd's.. and had to listen to westlife songs all the way back from kl - kb or the other way round.. not to mention the screaming, out-of-pitch vibratos and everything that me n my sister did..it was a good memory though..makes me realized how i miss to had the 7-hours drive again.even after we've done it like thousands times..
flying without wings itself...reminds me of my sister so-called girl-band singing in front of school...lol.. n of course, the one that we have in kms..credits to nina for the excellent guitar chord...

not sure of the song title that goes like this "pogi pokan, naek basikal, tongah hari" and so on and on...
again..my dad.. he had this clear vision on how to keep us awake in the car.. so...remember all the stupid lyrics that we came up with..? i sure really2 miss you guys so much..(i'm starting to cry even just by writing this..sob2)

enggan - fauziah latif
not sure if my family and cousin would remember but back then, when we used to do karaoke at my house, i would sing this song and had a perfect score...you know how the LD player had this karaoke evaluating thingy where it measures your singing..
and i remember all the crap i sung...obviously, perfect score went to the drag queen..lol..

dimana malumu- melly goeslow
ingat x lagu niiiiiiiiiiii!!!! first and las time i would talk about it,...
for any of you guys who watch the ada apa dengan cita the movie, remember the first part of the movie where the girls danced to a song in the bedroom..? well, the wonderful me and along and kak long and kak emie and kak wanie and sya re-do it! haha!~ it was hilarious but i still remember it..at least, the hands part..
i miss all the singing and time sthat we had especially on the car rides with only the 5 or 6 of us singing to siti's melly or kris.. miss you guys badly...

negaraku - d'melodious
the first song that i can play with violin. miss those orchestra bits...

leaving on the jet plane- jet, tomorrow-avril
izyan arif.. i think this song brought us to where we are today...i'll remember all the times we spent on these songs.. love you n love you forever

when you're gone - avril
e-in, i still am crying for everytime i hear the song..hope you enjoy the movie we made and the song fits very well.. love you dear
proud - dbsk
syamin, lagu ni make you fall in love with them dont you..miss to rock the world of E002 with their songs..muahahah
more than words
i heard you play so much songs before and after..however, you still got me on the more than words on your birthday.. a short 30 seconds that reminds me so much of you..
'ape yg penting kerjasame, talifon berbunyi"
hahahaha!~ cant stop laughing.. this one goes to asilah and gja..the two kids that cheer my life up!



there are quite a number of songs that really portrays me..
some can be tell like what i did above and some are just too precious to be shared.
regardles..
hope not only song will bring us together..
love..
eternally..

miss my life..

Friday, November 13, 2009

Gravity..keeping the faith

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.


You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down



hope to see you guys again.
as one.
eternally.
always keep the faith.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I miss him

i was in the library and suddenly, an old man fall from his seat.
my heart pounded so hard..i thought he had a heart attack or something similar..
i rushed to him and saw blood all over his left eyes..
he had cuts all over his face and hands..
seriously i dont know how he got the cuts when he only fall onto the carpet.
maybe he's old..
his skin is vulnerable...
i put some bandage and wiped his blood..
i saw some old cuts all over his hand, face, fingers..

when i returned to my seat. i was thinking..
he reminds me of him..
a man that i love and miss up until today..
its been 8 years and one month..
hope your soul is blessed there..

forever love and miss you,
my Tok Ayah..

Friday, October 9, 2009

IZYAN ARIFF....

saya nak bagitau awak..izyan ariff...
saya rindu
izyan ariff...

rindu..
rindu nak gi umah awak..
rindu nak gelak same2 ..
rindu nak naek kete same2...
rindu nak lepak noodle same2...
rindu nak tido same2...
rindu nak jalan2 same2...
rindu shopping same2.....
rindu nak wat album tu same2....

basically..
saya rindu nak spent time dengan awak...

Fatin Wahab rindu Izyan Ariff. period.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

when migrain visits...

when migrain visits...
satu keje pon x jadi..
homework x buat..
MATHS x practice...
research terbengkalai....

when migrain visits..
satu hari xder mood..
satu hari x nk ckp ngan org...
satu hari asyik tidor jer...
satu hari xproduktif jawabnya..

when migrain visits...
baju x basuh...
meja x kemas..
bilik x sapu...

when migrain visits...
rindu rumah...
rindu ummi bagi migrain-killer and suh masuk tido dlm blik dye...

when migrain visits...
semue diatas terjadi..
oleh itu incik migrain, pegila maen jauh2..
kesian kat kepala saye...
da lame da dtg menjenguknye...
boleyla tu nak balik yer incik migrain..
(nada menghalau)(cepatla pergi)

oh, saya kurang gembira
bile migrain menjelma...

Friday, September 18, 2009

family comes first..of all means, all the time....

sebab da nak raye, tp x nak wish raye lagi...
tibe2...teringat memory pagi2 raye..
esp yg kat my house...
i'm gonna first my first one in 20 years....
bot regretting but terkilan....
for my family, you guys should know that there's nothing that i would trade you guys with... n i would trade anything to have another one moment will all of you..
MISS MY FAMILY...so much...

ok, so, as i've never wrote a post on them..here, quite a detail one...=]
meet my family....


huhuhu...miss korg sgt2...n then...
my uncle n aunty...ni still x ckup..so.xper la..hehehehe..
che jah, che je, pok min, pok me, ayah le, che jun, che ji, che la, sumah! fa rindu rindu rindu nih...hehehee


btw, one moment to arwah ayah qie....al-Fatihah....

pastu....my love-life...heee causins...syg korg sgt2....rindu2... prepare adiah untuk sy nok balik next year yer...pastu kiter gi jalam2...jgn kansel2 da...kene jadi......
kak long..kak wani...kak emie...mc ya...along...n saya...we're the perfect team...



rindu2....semue org pon sy rindu..

pastu...dtgla kanak2 yg memeriahkan raye...rindu sume....tp..
paling rindu....kat muyie bochia..waaaaa



konklusinya...sy rindu smua org..

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Happy Birthday Asilah Amran

asilah sayang, selamat hari lahir ke 20....da tua da kau..=]
aku doakan you'll be blessed by him, always...
we're 15 hours drive apart, so, there's nothing much i can do to celebrate hari ko transform from baby asilah ke gadis manis asilah...=P
so, i remembered you requested a poem for you..
here it goes..
(btw, sorry x best sgt...tp aku wat ikhlas tuk kau..=])

The beautiful past memories are embracing both worlds
With bliss and happiness swathe the two distance souls
For we’ve known the serenade that the other’s hold
To keep us tight while holding onto the world of our own.

Right now, somewhere, for I’ve known you’re in pain
And all I could offer is a paper of love for you to paint
Cause everything I wish for is you to smile again

As the world keeps spinning around,
Seek for the one moment to compose the sparkling sound,
To be kept, cherished and treasured,
For us to always remember,
That along the road that we travelled,
We’ve met the blue sky high; dark unravel ocean.

Thanks to you
I thank you forever
As you, is a gift to me
To ride this secret journey
Until the light shines our hearts,
Never we’ll ever be apart,
Like a melody and harmony in love.


Nor Asilah Amran,
Happy 20th birthday... have a great eid fitr cause we deserve it more than anything..=]
sayang ko...hope you know..

lots of love,
Fatin....




[EMOSAH] [ASMAA] [AZIM]




Selamat Hari Raye Aidilfitri kat korg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sesungguh hati kitorg kat sni rindu kat korg....
mintak maaf ampun hujung rambut hujung kaki atas salah silap, terksar bahase, action sini sane...sorry sessangat...even though you guys arent here in the States, you guys are here in our heart..
for we treasure you more than anyone else... We might be half war around the world's apart, tp aku harap, we'll stay as one, like we use to..
I pray for all of us to succeed in every single thing we do,
xkirela kat sni ke..
kat malaysia ke
uk ke...
prove them that we can..as we really do can..
for we've tried and worked so hard to blow this off..
semoga korg sume have a great hari raye..
rayekan untuk kitorg sekali..
post2 la duit raye...biskut raye...
kitorg terima ngan tangan ngan mulut terbuka....
aku sayang korang.... dyorg sume pon syg korang...
see you guys when we have made it to the top!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
NOOR HANISAH ABDUL RAZAK
ASMAA" NOR WIRA
and hero kite, ABDUL AZIM ZAKARIAH

Kad raye ni kitorg buat khas untuk our other 3 pieces of heart yg ader kat Malaysia....



SAYANG SUMENYER~

Sunday, September 13, 2009

WISHLIST

there are several things i would really lyke to have nowadays...
BUT....
after the 2 hours phone talk (yg tlh memanaskan telinga i) with cik hani...
baru sye sendiri sedar...
sy masih belum jumpe LEMON saye..
kat mane Lemon..
so... my top list would be LEMON...

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

the truth of life....Al-Fatihah

its funny how we're always back to square one, the Almighty...
i was attracted to mat per's post on realiti manusia yg hanya berpaling padanya pada masa sulit, sedih, sukar n yg sewaktu dengannya... (terasa akteli)
few months back, we lost ARWAH NUBLAN....
we grieved..
we moaned...
we cried...
we didnt forget that he died...but we forget the sharp feeling that we hd when we first hear the news...
the fear of death....
setiap ummat yg memliki rasa takut akan mati masih ader iman dihati...(heard this somewer)
i was like that... i forgot to remember that feeling..
the sharp strong emotion that rush the blood out...
iman bertambah dan berkurang... sukar bagi seseorg itu untuk mengekalkan imannya kerana manusia sering alpa dengan keindahan dunia yg terbentang...

few minutes ago.... my uncle died... n i had this rush feeling again...
n this time around, i wanted it to last...
for this feeling is what i need to keep me on the ground...
to wake me up..from the truth of life...

Al-Fatihah to uncle Zayuki...
forgiveness i seek and forgiveness i give for everything that we had within those 9 years i knew you...
for Him knows whats best... i pray for your soul to be blessed and placed with the org2 beriman...may you rest in peace.....
to my beloved aunty, i give you my heart and my strength for you to pull through this bitter moment in your life... what happen were only meant for us to go back to square one.. The Savior... lots of love...

Thursday, June 18, 2009

LIFE pt 2

lupe nak upload kat cni
btw..
another amateur

The freezing hands are now warmed with tender,
and the memories will embrace the cold hearts forever,
with birds serenade the song that may decipher,
after rains pour the lullaby of cheer.

Of 2 years here were sometimes depressing,
whine, grieve and whim,
were among the colors that we paint,
when what we want were just to fit in,
and crybaby survived to sing

The sedentary dreams now live,
to feel the chance of victory at least,
with solitude fates passes in phase,
for us to grow hope and begin to believe.

Regardless in Europe, India, States or land of the moo,
may happiness fill your each day through and through,
for you are my friend, and will forever do.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Life

The freezing hands are clinging onto the wounds of the past
Tears, moan, whine;
Turning against the true meaning of the story
For a cold heart, in the vein of yourselves
Melts with a warm hug, like a frost.

There will forever be sorrow and loneliness
With man endures searching for a sanctuary to mend
To front days into the room of happiness

Fates play
Even though it makes your heart ache
And a ray of light
May descend from darkness for us to grasp
To feel the fierce painful touch
To discern a persons warmth
As beautiful as it is miserable
For the great time is ephemeral.

We name this LIFE.


Fatin Wahab, Jan 2, 0033

my second poem. enjoy..
sorry...amateur..